If I had to conclude my journey with one last article, I would say:
When you are young, you know a lot of things you don’t understand. The difference between those two are so great that it feels like you don’t know. You start to question yourself, and with questions come mistrust of your judgement and what you know. With that mistrust comes a reliance on the reckonings of others. Until one day you journey back to understanding that the reckonings of others are for the benefit of others and living for others has left you wanting.
At the bottom of this journey is understanding that almost no one is really genuinely happy for you. No matter how hard they saw you struggle to achieve what you have or how they cheered you on or supported the spectacle of your becoming, these were lies to cover their belief that you would eventually give in or settle as they did or some perverse desire to minimize what you have as on some level less than what they have… They will not be happy for or satisfied with you so long as you have become more successful in any area than they have become. If you lean on the advice and persuasions of others, they will advise and nudge you into misery, poverty, and loneliness. Instead, trust and rely on God for everything. This is yet another thing you know but don’t understand until you really do, and the end of the journey here ends back to you.
I would thank you once more for reading my stuff. Of course it is all just beginning
“… the ability to accurately label and effectively harness disappointment– to its proper and most beneficial place, is growth. I don’t mean “excuses” because those are empty, but when I am actively working on becoming better in that specific area, I am growing. You can see the steps I am and will take and progress is measurable. Then, you can see that the car is harnessing the fuel– not the other way around. I was allowing the fuel to drive and it completely incinerated the car! You can’t travel in a burnt up car!”
These are the BASICS– an important piece of the foundation on which I can build my dreams.
I value a short-cut and a heads-up like everyone else, but I can’t dream of shopping and promoting volumes of my own future work with the anxiety I carried about revealing myself or paralyzing fear and self-criticism that haunted me. Do I still become fearful? Yes, but instead of transporting me back to bed, I’ve learned to harness it as fuel to transport me to back to the satisfaction that comes with living a peaceful life– not fearful in spirit.”
As I have immersed myself into Part 2: Challenge to Finish a Project, I told you of dual projects (one mandatory) but I’m aware that I have written fewer letters these days as I have practiced writing for fiction characters. and other shorter poems, but I read a quote on a blog for writers that keeps returning to me, and I’ll post a link when I think of it or find it again- (or if you read it too, send me a link). It’s about how one should write the book you have- not the one you want. Have you ever seen something that you liked at the time but becomes LOUDER to you later. So loud that you’re nudged to feel that there’s something important to be learned from it? Well, that quote was like that to me… Here are chapter excerpts from the book I “have“. And it’s non-fiction so far. I hope you enjoy the preview. It’s about a question we have when we start or pick up enough pieces- how in the heck does one arrive where they are– so many factors that make a person who he or she is- our ethnocentrism (somewhere an Anthropologist is smiling). I noticed earlier that there are at least three regular posts in draft O_O and I said I wouldn’t do that! So Ya know what that means? to fix it 😀 I’m getting there haha! Thank you so much for following with me on this journey. Enjoy!
If you are also working on this Challenge, feel free to post your updates.
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Love Mekanism Project: “Growing Up Super-Angel-Mother-Nature-Human”
Thank you so much Richard A. Cross for thinking of me for this award. I have seen the company in which you have placed me, and I have been speechless since Monday over the gracious gesture. I read that Mr. Cross is a Motivational Speaker and Coach who has committed his time, talents, and influence, including a fire-stirring blog called, Energize Your Thoughts. All for a career of helping others push their limitations to reach full potential.
I can personally attest that when life gets hard enough, it can be difficult to remember who we are in terms of our abilities and promise. Boundaries can be moved so far you’ll need a compass to find your way out of an inch that looks like a sea of hopelessness- so large it can drown a man by sight alone.
And when a broken shell of a creature finds a way arise from a littered desert shore and dust himself off, the instinct is usually to further punish ourselves for ever getting there in the first place. Or worse, spend our days watching from the sun-beaten rocks in bitter fear that we might drown again. It’s good to know that somebody gives a damn, and I appreciate that.
Now! The rules are that I give the following information about myself:
I dreamt the name Love Mekanism, woke up, and wrote it out using the first thing I could find. Then, I text a pic to my best friend, who by then knew that I wanted to write creatively. This blog’s header is a picture of it.
Love Mekanism Project blog will be 7 weeks old on Sunday. The third challenge of the project was to share a personally written article of my choice and interest, with… other “people”. So, I set up this blog to host one post.
I wanted to do this for years now and to write creatively for as early as I could write. Perhaps that’s interesting because I have written as my only full-time career since I graduated from college up until the writer’s block.
Now, there are over 80 personally written posts here of my own, and I also feel comfortable saying that writing is no longer blocked– still plenty of room for improvement. It’s working, so won’t try to “fix” the little system I have- which is to post whatever I have so I’m forced to correct it and not hold it and never post anything. I’m just glad to be able write again 🙂
Often I have an idea of what I want to write about, but it never turns out as I imagine. I’m usually pleased with the drafts I post- although now-a-days, my edited versions are beginning to look more and more like the originally posted drafts
One interesting development is that I have become comfortable making people uncomfortable. Although most will find nothing terribly wrong with what I have to say here, but in some circles of the life I was born into, people are afraid to even hear, read, or consider anything other than his or her own view in it’s own way. No matter. Where I would have shied away from that, I’m drawn to it when I feel the need to be.
Hey! Ya know what else is pretty interesting? The artist kind enough to let me write about his song in the first post– just got a namesake guitar and performed at an awards show! I knew you’d think so too…
I looooooove to share what I love. The following are those I find inspiring. From a new blogging inspiration from down under who has spoiled the blog with 2 awards already and inspires me to either write well or run and hide until I can figure out how to respond to being called the “G”-word– “genius” O_O 😀 These are also those who inspire and push other writers and poets including those who have overcome adversity and turned it into something beautiful. For these, Love won’t allow us to pity ourselves too long because there’s too much living to do and too many people to inspire. And all is right with the earth by me in this moment knowing that it has been salted by humanity in the likes of you.
Now for Meka’s *NOMINEES* of the Very Inspiring Bloggers Award:
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Speaking of twitter. I wrote a poem just for twitter and just before lunch. Maybe I should share it. Having shared the first poem here, the first Haiku here, and, I felt the need to share my first twitter poem too. Enjoy!
Cake by @lovemekanism
“Unhealthy. Every hydrocarbon of my being draws close so I might have each single touch of u but I crave more. Harder. I transform”
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New Music, Artist, Poetry, Challenge – Schooled
This one is called “Schooled”. It’s Back-to-School time for kids down here. With just few days of Summer winding down and the school year beginning, the teachers will have their hands full in just a couple more weeks, but for now, the kids still run this town. And that energy is what I wanna see so…
Beauty in the Basics
picture of ellesmere port specialist school of performing arts schoolbus (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
Education (any interpretation)
School Bus Yellow
Young Nerds and/or Geeks
Here’s your chance to get in on a Challenge from the beginning, and this is my favorite one! See the Background info at the end of this post. But this is the New Artist Challenge where you help us discover new music, poetry, and art. I’m ready to hear and review something new. This time, there’s no caveat,I will write a review of at least one and possibly scale that number as needed. I understand that some don’t like starting in the middle and catching up, so this is great opportunity for you too. Let’s find and review the next great music.
There are several important changes as a result of accommodations to accept all types of artists- including tasteful art rated above R or Explicit.